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little earthquakes: doesn't take much to rip us to pieces

Instead of commenting about how it's been a while since I last wrote a blog, I'm just going to go ahead and assume; based on the way this year is going, that there will be some time in between each blog.

2016 has been ROUGH hasn't it?

I've been through so much already this year, I am really hoping to at least end it on a good note and be able to move into My dream house sometime soonish....

I have done a very good job of enjoying the summer in the berkshires I have to say. Lots of time spent at lakes, on the mountain, in the woods, at waterfalls, and in the garden. I haven't gotten to really enoy My garden as much as I want to this year because My awful neighbors have been like, smoking cigarettes nonstop on the front porch which then gets blown directly into My house, and doing things like leaving nasty butts all over the front, and leaving a kiddie pool with sludge and slime and mosquitos and a fucking dead squirrel in it for weeks at a time...and they also ripped up all the hastas and morning glories I planted in the front. On purpose. Because they were sick of Me gardening, yah I need to move. I've needed to for a while and this place was only ever meant as a transition. Leaving My husband and My home and belongings and hometown was difficult. I needed to catch My breathe somewhere neutral, and that was 4 years ago. I've caught My breathe, somehow.....and I've been here about 2 years longer than I wanted to....

So: the house hunt is on. I need somewhere I can spread My wings and let My dogs out without fear of unregistered family of pitbulls attacking them. I want to be able to throw My lunge whips outside and sun bathe nude and plant pumpkins without them getting mowed over. I don't want to have to manuever around multiple cars just to leave My own house. I NEED My own space. I deserve My own space and I work goddamn hard enough to afford My own space.

The hunt is on for real. Or at least beginning stages of planning and I've been looking at a lot of places, hoping to find just the right one. I have a pretty specific list in mind of what I want. But I've been here this long and I'll just keep looking til the right one comes.

I HAVE been being super productive this summer tho. I along, with My editor in LA began and finished work on “The Training of Poe” the BDSM erotic documentary I shot last year with Chelsea Poe.

Well, we finished the editing part. I know that in the porn industry a lot of times things get shot and then cut and then printed within a month, but I had no time or desire to do that. I really wanted to take My time and do things My own way. Of course, making a movie all by yourself is really fucking hard! Making and producing and releasing an ADULT movie is even harder.

If you check out the blog for the movie:

you'll find all sorts of info, photos, links, and trailers!

You can check out the official trailer here:

and the SFW trailer on My youtube channel. I've also been releasing some cool interviews with Chelsea, behind the scenes while we were shooting and plan to release some of the slave diaries from the film as well:

This week I am staying home to work on the zine so that it's finished at the same time as I have copies of the movie in My hands. I'm not giving an exact date because I have twice and already surpassed it. All I can really say is: I'm doin the best I can! Self producin aint easy! We've had a lot of setbacks due to health, time constraints and My most recent headache: a mac to pc compatibility issue. So, it's being worked on, it's just a little slow. ASAP is the release date. I have to get it off to be authored, then get that back then send that off to have copies made then wait for the copies to get to Me.

I will of course keep everyone updated on My twitter: where I post about how over I am listening to My own laugh and watching My own movie ten thousand times.

I have been doing lots of sessions, which has been great. Meeting new slaves and fetishists and working with new people has been good for My soul this summer. I was a bit down since My favorite slave moved far away and we don't get to see each other anymore.

I've also done a fair amount of travel, back and forth to Boston and all over New England. It feels like I've been in the car (with no AC btw) ALOT this summer, and I'm also over that!

I got to do one really fun trip to Boston. Did a session with a slave I hadn't seen in over a year, got to have lunch with Goddess Lilith Astaroth and even interview her for Old Nick Magazine!

Here we are bein cute:

I also got to shoot with SoleFeetures, a custom foot fetish ball busting beat down video which was totally fun. I got to play a serial killer, here's a few teasers:

I'm home now for a few weeks and not doing much travel until I go to NY next month.

So, speaking of sessions and travel, lemme give yall a heads up about where you can book sessions with Me in the following months.

From now til Aug 24 I'll be available for sessions at La Domaine Esemar outside of Albany NY.

There is a HUGE fully equipped dungeon here and also tons of private play space outside. Would love to get some outdoor play in before the summer is out!

From Aug 25-27 I will be available for sessions in the Springfield, MA area.

I will also probably be dancing on this weekend, though I'm leaving that a bit up in the air for now.

And Aug 28-31 I am available for sessions in the southern Maine area.

I will again be available for sessions in the Springfield, MA area Sept 1-8

In the Brattleboro VT area Sept 7-9

And the most exciting news........I will be making a NYC trip in September!

Shooting with fetish model Rikochan! Doing burlesque in Brooklyn

and I will be available for double Domme sessions with Mistress Julie Simone!

Sept 21-25

I will have access to Her gorgeous dungeon in Queens as well.

If you are at all interested in learning more, or booking a professional BDSM session with Me in any of these cities please visit

I will be releasing the flyer for My burlesque show and event listing as it becomes available.

But the date is Sept 23rd in williamsburg brooklyn!

I'm also going to be shooting with fetish model Rikochan! I am sure we will come up with something weird and wonderful. I for one do not think there is enough breast smothering in My life.

In other exciting news:

I have a multi page spread out in this months issue of Old Nick Magazine

Here's a tiny teaser......and My ad running in this issue!

You can order your very own copy here:

Digital (hardcore):

Print (soft):

ALSO: They have officially announced Me in print!!! as:

The new Editor At Large for the magazine

that's super exciting for Me, I really have loved this rag for so many years. It was an honor to be in it! As talks went on, it just felt like a home for lots of the darker things I want to write about and talk about. So be on the lookout for some written pieces by Me in the NEXT issue. I mean, any magazine that runs a full page ad for “The Satanic Warlock” is ok in My book. I feel like I have found My people. It would be awesome if yall could support this radical gentlmen's mag with a satanic flair.

I got to throw My first party at Club Centerstage in downtown Springfield, MA ina while. And even tho we only had 2 weeks to promote it it was still a big success.

It was also the first time I ever got to officially host a party with burlesque starlet Morgan Fey

Morgan and I have known each other for a very long time and she always graces My parties with her presence and I felt it was time to let her come and co host one with Me! We had an excellent time. The night was kinda crazy and went by too quick. Thank Goodness photographer Brandon Stack was there to capture some photos!

Please check out Morgans page at:

and Brandons photos at:

You can also see LOTS more photos over on My facebook page:

If you've been paying attention to My clips4sale page you saw that I even released some clips of Morgan and I together for the occasion!

So, that's about it for now. I'm sure I'll be dancing in Springfield and maybe even CT and Worcester, MA sometime very soon, but I'm not releasing any dates yet because basically My life is taken up by this movie until it comes out...

so help a bitch out and preorder one. Buy one for a friend. Buy a copy to show to your college class. Showing real lesbian lifestyle BDSM sexuality is so fucking important It's rare and I can tell you with all honesty there has never been a movie like this ever in the history of erotic documentaries and the adult industry. Please support independently made queer in case you missed it the first time.

I've been putting in waaaay too many hours in front of this computer, and in My car, which is probably why I haven't blogged in so long. One of the sad things about this summer, well, maybe not sad but...since I HAVE been in My car and driving SO much, I really have been trying to be practical with what My body can physically handle. As a result, I'm telling a lot of people NO for out of town fun stuff that requires driving. It's just too much. I wanna be home as much as possible. In My garden. With My dogs. My little best friends.

If you want to send My best friends something nice, the chihuahuas actually have their own wishlist: Chihuahua superstars!

I of course also have My personal wishlist: I need a new TV for My bedroom and new grow lights and a Drake pillowcase, obviously!

You can also find a Dance wishlist, if you want to get Me cute things to take off on stage as I travel around at gentlemen's clubs:

And if you are a fan of My perfectly pedicured size 7 beautiful FEET then you'll find lots of ways to spoil My tootsies on My all things feet wishlist:

So, send Me gifts, send Me fan mail, send Me letters of encouragement about how much you love the trailed for “Training of Poe”

just don't send Me lame one line emails that say “hey”

and please dont ask Me to hook up with you. Gross.

Unless you are that stoner femme who wants to do spells in the woods that I've been dreaming of....

real talk tho:

House of Vendetta IS looking for some new slaves right now

In particular, a sissy maid, a babygurl, and a pet/beast/puppy/kitty of some kind.

I need to complete the circle. So if you are interested in becoming part of an old guard leather household in the western MA area drop a polite letter of introduction to:

MistressBellaVendetta at gmail for more information

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Paradise has it's price

Well, the last few blog posts have been rather grim I know. I can't help it, I don't get to dictate the way life unfolds. It's weird and strange and sad and beautiful.

As some of you in the know in the fetish world may have heard, Our circle got even smaller recently with the death of the great

Charles Gatewood

He and his work had a lot to do with baby Bella Domme and the fetishist and artist I was inspired to become. So, that hurts, but I feel happy to have had the opportunity to be affected by him.

Immedietly after his death actually, I was scheduled to go on a northeast adventure with fetish model Morgan Fey. The kind of adventure that would have made Charles Gatewood proud. You've all seen Morgan in My blog for literally YEARS and she's always posing at My parties for photogs and doing burlesque performances etc, but of all the years we've known each other we'd never gotten the chance to do a real shoot together. So naturally I brought this sweet lil dancing queen to HELL. Quite literally

We took a nice long road trip and headed to Brutal Master's dungeon to shoot some really hardcore BDSM.

BrutalMaster is also someone you know about from My blog, and devotees of My website will remember as well. He is a sadist, more so than Me! It's a beautiful thing to behold. Among other things, he is also an excellent photographer/pornographer and chef. We spent the weekend eating. I mean EATING wonderful food!

Meatballs, red sauce, rice balls, pasta, bread, fresh tomato and mozzarella, Corned beef and cabbage homemade soda bread, excellent bagel and lox and capers. Off the hook. It was like coming home to My people. Family. It was nice. And also being with in general and especially cooking with other italians is really good for My soul and I needed that.

Morgan didn't have much experience with BDSM and as such the shoot was a lot more tame than.....than...than what BrutalMaster and I would normally inflict on someone together...ha!

But, her scream is really high pitch and lovely and she is really pretty when she cries. I just love making girls cry. In the best way possible of course.

Morgan found it cathartic and much fun was had by all.

Here are some of the beautiful photos for our first scene which is live NOW on

You can also find the scene for sale in My Clips4sale store here:

and visit MY whole entire clips store, which I'll be back to updating weekly because I have been shooting SO MUCH good stuff.

If you are smart enough to follow Me on snapchat then you would have already seen the behind the scenes and as it happens of this shoot. It was quite fun. My snapchat has been LIVE too!

I am giving access to folks who support Me in some way:

That means:

buying clips from My store

buying photosets or phone calls on

buying items off My wishlist!

also: tis the season where I would LOVE some stuff off My Garden wishlist:

also: I'm going to be dancing ALOT this season/summer. I'm gonna go back to doing some regular shifts so I can get My lovely regulars back and you'll know when to expect Me and I can spend more time with My springfield MA peoples. That being said. I DESTROY shoes and clothes on stage and would really love some new ones off My dance wishlist!

So: if you support Me in some way: I would be happy to give you access to My snapchat! You get to see all the behind the scenes from shoots, dressing room selfies at the stripclub, and Me ranting and raving with no makeup on at all hours of the day and night.

I also have some BOOKS and DVDs for sale so if you'd like to find out how you can urchase one of those, OR give Me your info so I can verify a wishlist purchase or clip purchase drop Me an email:

BellaVendetta666 at gmail

SO since the last few blogs were so glum and I didn't feel much like spoiling yall with pictures. Like I dunno, I just went through this period of time where ALL of My fans were being such assholes. Just begging for free shit sending dick pics asking Me to marry then, prying for personal information fucking disgusting. And sometimes it would feel like, seriously I just spent all weekend driving and driving and putting makeup on and fighting exhaustion and then spending hours editing to happily share some free photos, only to have people beg for MORE. It's like.

Fuck you pay Me.

If I was independently wealthy I would honestly probably STILL travel around shooting weird artporn with beautiful women. But I'm not, and I need YOU to help fund this weird stuff we all love so much.

Then I can reward you with an extra thank you of My snapchat

And like, there's folks who I've added on snapchat just so I can say like hey thanks for adding Me here but I only give access to folks who support Me in some way. And they're like yah....well...I just spent twenty minutes looking at snaps of your ass and jerking off but I don't feel that I should have to give you any financial compensation at all. And then when I block them I'm this bitch. So, sorry guys.

You get My twitter for free,





Do you greedy fucks really need snachat for free too or can you show Me you value My time and art by purchasing something?


I don't wanna become bitter and stop sharing My shit with the world at large so don't wreck it for Me.

And just to show you how much I DO love My fans and supporters and followers and slaves and devotees SO MUCH

here's some more awesome pics.

Ok: so as you saw in a previous blog post Mistress Julie Simone came to visit in march and We got to shoot ALOT of stuff. THAT was also good for My soul. Being around another like minded Pro Domme. We shot some GREAT stuff! I've JUST gotten the time to sit down and go though some of it. I am sharing a few pics with you all here:

I had this hoodie for forever, a gift from slave tim (who disappeared off the face of the earth shortly thereafter) and Julie shot these of Me outside at this junkyard place.

and then later I shot these pics of Julie smoking in My dungeon space. The last shoots to go down there!

I also had alluded to some photos I took at one of My favorite bars.

The Crystal Hardhat Saloon was one of My favorite spots in berkshire county. I've had birthday parties there, thrown punk shows, done interviews, met with prospective models and photographers. Become good friends with Todd the owner and all of the bartenders. I mean, I don't know how much of a drunk you have to be or what it says about Me that I get invited to employee parties and I'm not an employee but....whatever.

The closure has left an empty place in My heart! I have no where to meet My friends in north county anymore...

Well, before he took a chainsaw to the bar, I got permission to do a quick photoshoot to commemorate all the wonderful times I've had there.

I've danced on the bar before, but I've never quite gotten the chance to crawl around and drink beer on it and do a proper shoot. So photographer Zennifer came along and I wore My Crystal Hardhat shirt and daisy dukes and flannel and braided pigtails and cowgirl boots (that Julie Simone had given Me and I couldn't wait to wear) and we did a proper goodbye shoot!

I LOVE these and I hope all the patrons love them too and don't get mad at some pornstar for dirtying up their beloved local treasure.

The full photoset is available for purchase, and then you'd get access to My snapchat! (who already saw these photos and how cute I looked the day I took them! See how that works!)

email Me: BellaVendetta666 at gmail

Now onto more news

as mentioned: I will be dancing!! YAH! I miss it. My body misses it. I miss My friends. I miss My customers. I miss My club. I miss the physical workout of it.

SO: I've got some dates! Come see Me!

Starting TONIGHT!

Thirsty thursday AND it's fucking cinco de mayo. Hopefully someone don't get hurt! HA!

I'll be dancing 7 pm til 2 am with lovely Milca behind the bar! And tons of other gorgeous ladies. I think I also miss that, having gorgeous ladies around Me.

Stage shows, private dances, VIP balcony, champagne rooms. Fully nude, full liquor license.

Let's talk about the VIP balcony thing. I've spent a lot of time up there....I mean like, doing photoshoots and taking selfies and dragging pretty girls up there to make out with...but I've never actually been taken in there by a customer. And I really want to. It's My goal for this summer. Please make it happen for Me.

So for May:

Thursday May 5th: Nightshift at the world famous Club Centerstage in downtown springfield, MA

Monday May 9th Day shift at Center Stage

Thursday May 12th night shift at Center Stage

Sunday May 15th day shift at Center Stage

Monday May 16th Day shift at Centerstage

Thursday May 19th nightshift at Club Centerstage

(I'm also cool with giving snapchat access to My customers at the club too!)

You can also find Me this SATURDAY MAY 7th marching in the Noho Pride Parade in northampton MA!  Come kick the PRIDE season off!  I will be marching with the Trancending Boundaries crew
wave hi
show some love and support!

with more TBA of course. I'll also be travelling a bit and at some clubs in CT, RI, NJ and NY

I'll be posting blogs more regularly as well, since I'll have tons of events, updates and shoots to keep yall up to date with.

Show some support please! Thanks to the real fans!

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a new sadness every other week, with some happiness thrown in


It's 2016, it's been a minute since I blogged.

I've still kinda been reeling from a bad breakup

January is the anniversary of My mother's death

January is the anniversary of Jim Squires, My tattoo artist and beloved pretty much family member, first year.

January I got realllly really sick with the flu and was out of work for two whole weeks.

January sucked I wanted it to be over before it began

February was supposed to be better.

February is My mothers birthday.

February My friend Rebekah died of an overdose.

She was someone I've known for a decade. She was someone I loved.

She was someone I texted at 2 am, someone who would drive over an hour away just to give Me a ride. Someone who would call out of work and never miss one of My parties ever.

Someone I stayed up til 4 am with listening to Michael Jackson and smoking bowls.

Someone who trusted Me enough to pierce her knees and suspend her. Someone who trusted Me with her very life. Someone who had Me help her propose to her girlfriend.

A member of My body modification and queer communities. Someone who never judged Me.

Someone who loved animals.

Someone who hid her drug use from Me.

Someone who was juuuust making plans to come and visit Me with Sacha Thumper just a few days before her death.

It was like it wasn't even real.

I found out via facebook

which I hate.

Someone posted to her page

“I love you!”

and someone else commented: me too

and I commented “Me three”

I didn't know she was dead

I thought it was just a spontaneous show of love for someone who soooo many people cared for.

It made Me incredibly sad.

I feel sad now just thinking about it.....

My circle is getting smaller and smaller.....

I was really sad. We all were. I had some friends come to the club so we could hug each other and do a shot in her honor.

I planned on seeing all My friends and squeezing them tight at the funeral services.

A few days before I was sick again, and kept getting sicker and sicker. Eventually became aware that I had contracted the coxsackie virus.

Like, who the fuck does that happen to?

5 year olds.

People around a lot of kids.

Not Me.

Well, yah....Me. So I was out of commission, quarantine status covered in a rash contagious with blisters on My feet and hands. My beautiful feet and hands.

I basically sat home and cried.

And cleaned.

I someone suffered three major latex reactions (I am super allergic) all in a short time span with gave Me hives.

Not feeling very sexy, but damn was I so determined to get back to work.

A few weeks into feb another member of the suspension community

Trisha Nelson, tragically lost her life. She was murdered

She was a victim of domestic violence

she was gunned down in cold blood in the middle of a busy intersection

Her family mourns

My hook family mourns.

The circle gets smaller.....

please read more about Trisha and how you can help her family here:

It hit Me hard. All of it. Being sad, depressed, with a poor immune system, plus the stress of being so broke due to not working two major illnesses and a major latex reaction all in 2 months...

didn't make for quick healing. It was really slow going and I was so tired all the time and had a hard time coming back.

I was so sure march was gonna be better.

It had to be.

It's not fair to have that much sadness in your life all in a row.

March 5th was My bday and as you know, I generally plan some big huge grand parties and events and bring in feature acts and performers.

Well sorry, too much sickness and sadness.

Besides, it seemed wrong planning a party without Rebekah...she WAS the party, and who else was gonna stay up all night laughing with Me, ya know. Who was gonna make weird faces for the camera? So at the last minute, like with a weeks notice I decided to just have a regular party. Well, regular for Me. No flyers no feature acts, just invited My friends and hoped for a good time.


A good time was had by all.

So many awesome people came out to help Me celebrate!

Of course Sach Thumper and her whole clan was there, Burlesque starlet Morgan Fey

Pro Domme from Boston Jada Sinn was in the house

trans pornstar royalty Tara Emory of was there.

Brandon Stack of Brandon Stack Photography was thankfully there to take pics of the whole debacle.

So, enough with the sadness and woe

here's some fun pictures of some major hotties and trouble I got into for My birthday:

Please click those links and support those people!

also: even MORE pics (although they are all SFW) on My fb page here:

After My bday life didn't slow down at all.

I did some fun gigs as a figure model for a class of painters and artists. I really love doing that. Although it's terrifying at the same time. This class is reallly cool and they make beautiful art and make Me feel beautiful.

If you've been following Me on snapchat you would seen some of the behind the scenes and some of the paintings done of Me.....

If you wanna find out how you can follow Me on snapchat you can find that here:

Another fun thing that happened in march is that Julie Simone came to visit Me!

This year, Julie was nominated for an AVN award for a movie that I was on the cover of!

We've has been working together for many many years, but We hadn't seen each other in some time.

We always end up creating some awesome stuff together. This visit was no exception. We got to relax, do a few sessions (the last sessions in My dungeon) shoot some aaaaawesome stuff and EAT! A lot.

I'm not going tp share any of those pics with you yet....

that'll be for the next blog.

Well ok, here's a selfie of Us:

If you follow Me on instagram you would have already seen this:

March is also always a little bittersweet because it's the anniversary of Shannon Larrat's death. My friend and mentor who commited suicide 3 years ago.

I wrote a piece about it and you can learn about Shannon, the creator of here:

Then, right after Julie left I had to move My entire dungeon, studio, office and storage area and somehow manage to make it fit in My apartment. Sacha Thumper and her team helped. My slave helped with the last few things. could NOT have done it without them! Love My circle.

April has been rough as well

The month began with the news of the death of Amber Rayne. A pornstar fetish model and adult industry colleague.

That was also profundly sad.

You can read this beautiful piece about it by My friend Gram Ponante

The circle gets smaller....

April is also a bit bittersweet because it's the first anniversary of DJ Jess. Someone who was also influential in My life and helped Me do some awesome shit.

I really would like for My friends to stop dying. I want to stop being sad and having to talk about memories. I want the circle to grow...not get smaller.

I see you

I need you

you know who you are.

Needless to say, the beginning of this year has already had many ups and downs, mostly way down. But I'm still here, keep plugging on.

I took a day job partially because I was so broke and still trying to catch up after the long bouts of illness...

and partially because I thought I needed a break from sexwork

and for some reason I thought it would be easy and fun

but work in a commercial kitchen isn't ever really like, easy or fun.

It's got Me up at 5 am

it's got Me tired as hell

after I get home and walk the dogs and shower the kitchen smell off of Me I have to sit down and work at the computer to try and keep up with this machine that is Beautiful Revenge Productions....

I think I'm burnin My candle at both ends.

I also miss the club.

And I miss counting My cash at the end of the night if you know what I mean...

So: let's make sure the next few months are awesome shall we?

I'm gonna be back at the club a bittersweet I'm gonna be traveling north to shoot with Brutal Master

I get to tie up the gorgeous Morgan Fey and torture her, I am so excited!

It's the little things, really.

For now: I want you to know that you can find Me THIS SUNDAY

at the world famous Club Centerstage in downtown springfield MA

I'll be dancing DAY SHIFT from noon til 7 pm

come say hi and help put Me in a better mood.

If you also wanna put Me in a better mood and get in My good graces

I would LOVE tickets to see DOLLY PARTON jun 17th at tanglewood in Lenox MA.

I would give a special awesome care package to anyone who wants to get that for Me.

Make My day

and then email Me:

see you sunday!

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chokin on big bloody mouthfuls of it.

I did that thing again where I went silent for a long time. Alot of stuff happened and I didn't know how to talk about it, and I didn't want to gloss it over and I also didn't wanna write a fake happy things are awesome type of blog.

So friends and lovers, just know that I've been busy, and goin thru some shit. I think I've been goin thru shit since I got back from Cali and dealing with family shit. Haven't had much of a break in the way of bad news and intense stressful situations to deal with for months now and it took it's toll.

Sometimes I just need to hide out in the country and NOT write for a while so I can sort through it all.

I went through a really, really bad dramatic awful drawn out and heinous breakup with someone I was very much in love with. It hit Me super hard because it's the first relationship I've been in since My divorce. I was single for many many years. After an abusive and traumatic marriage it took a lot for Me to trust again. I actually didn't think I ever would get close to someone again. So it hurts a lot, having taken the chance and had it thrown back in My face.

Merry Christmas, right?

(I don't even wanna talk about christmas because it was hands down the worst and most depressing christmas of My entire life.)

But you know, it's nice to know My heart isn't completely black and dead and that I am indeed capable of love, and as I'm starting to figure out, I'm even capable of forgiveness. It's sort of been empowering, but damn what a nightmare to get here.

I happen to have a lot of experience with fucked up people who are really close to Me doing fucked up things. And realizing that all sorts of people are capable of awful shit. But that doesn't always mean you have to hold hatred in your heart for them. They are human people, who fucked up. And it's ok to have complicated emotions about that.

So, in the midst of all the bullshit I also got realllly super sick with the dreaded flu. No wonder, the stress and not taking care of Myself I got sick. Like really sick, like out of work for three weeks sick. Both of these situations were brutal reminders of how difficult it can be to deal with mundane things as a sex worker. Like breakups and being sick becomes harder.

Like, dating as a sex worker isn't like dating  a civilian.  Its different in so many ways.. It becomes even harder to find someone you have an actual connection with and who doesn't just think that fucking a pornstar is a cool thing to brag about later. I think this is something all sex workers can relate to: But sometimes guys THINK it's really cool that you're a sex worker and so open and honest and then it becomes the exact thing they hate about you. Jealousy, mistrust, and the need to sling the occasional insult about how you're a sex worker. It hurts a lot when you think you've found someone who gets it, who sees your work as legitimate, and then they get drunk and tell you you're just a talentless whore.....use the fact that you do sex work against you in fights.

you know?

If you're a sex worker and you are with someone you can't discuss your sex work with, I don't think it's a relationship that can work. No matter what the connection and passion that may be there, on a core level you cannot see eye to eye.

And being a sex worker and being sick...means no work, means no money. My success depends on My body, so when it fails Me it affects everything. There's no paid sick leave and I have no health insurance. I also had no one to take care of Me so lots of time was spent on the couch crying, watching Nashville and ordering wonton soup. Thankfully I had Doctor Bean and Nurse Rosa (My chihuahuas) on caretaker duty.

ALSO: During this time My good friend and mentor Brutal Master of came into town and we had so many awesome outings and dinners and shoots planned. And instead he made Me some awesome italian food while I sniffled and coughed. It was nice to just hang out and NOT work tho, lots of time sex worker friends don't really get to do that because when you happen to be in the same place at the same time theres all this pressure to shoot and work together.

But, I don't wanna make this post about My weird personal life. Ok? Cuz there's actually a lot of GREAT stuff going on and I'd like to at least TRY to remain positive and enjoy the success that I'm experiencing lately. I have worked My ass off for so many years in this industry and it's really nice to have it pay off. To get booked for the events I want, shoots I want and have it recognized.

Like, first of all: “Coming Out Like A Pornstar” which I have a chapter officially an AMAZON BESTSELLER!

So, that's a trip right there, that this book is doing so well, people are reading it, it's helping them. It's an awesome feeling. I also still have a few copies for sale that I would love to send you signed! Some special valentines day deals and sales coming up but more on that later....

Also on the book front. Princess Kali's book “Enough to make you blush: Exploring erotic humiliation” came out and features quotes by yours truly.

Buy it here:

I've also been dancing a fair amount. Which is great on a number of levels. Great to get my money back up. Great to exercise. Great to be around other sex workers who GET IT and don't judge Me. Living out in the sticks I don't always have a lot of sex worker friends around to vibe with so My little trips out to springfield feel like going home sometimes.  Especially since all My friends were in Vegas partying it up and I didn't get to go this year.

I've also come over to the darkside. Working nights now! Nightshift is a totally different beast than day shift and it's something I'll try and write an article about later. Took me a while to get My body to cooperate, but I no longer have to get up at 6 am to drive a boyfriend to work. So instead I stay up til 6 most nights that I work.....(you know, I have to wind down, and eat something and shower and count My money)

SO: come and see Me dance!

I'll be dancing around western MA a lot actually!

TONIGHT January 28th and FRIDAY January 29th I'll be doing night shift, 7 pm til 2 am!

I will also be dancing FRIDAY feb 5th 7 pm til 2 am

and THURSDAY feb 11th I'll be at the club, we actually have this awesome event going on! Danny Barbosa will be there!

I'll be continuing a tradition and working at the stripclub on Valentines Day! I think I've done this at least for the last four years. Something cool happens pretty much every year. So instead of sitting home and hating your life come let some naked ladies rub all over you. Feel free to bring Me chocolate and roses.

Not sure of the hours I'll be working that day, I might even dance a double if I'm feeling squirelly.

All of this at the world famous Club Centerstage in downtown springfield MA for more info and directions.

As always, I may get a wild hair across My fine ass and add some more dates to this, so please follow Me on twitter: where I post all sorts of rants raves and always when I am working. And facebook where I always announce everything too:

You can follow Me on instagram too if you wanna see heel fetish pics and selfies I post from the club.

In other news:

The movie Julie Simone and I made did NOT win an AVN award. Sad I know, but still really honoured to have been nominated. It's a pretty cool point in My career to be on the cover of an AVN award nominated DVD and I don't even take My clothes off for the entire scene. It's like they really made an effort to include REAL bondage and BDSM movies this year instead of mainstream pornlands version of what they think fetish should look like.

I am planning some stuff for My birthday month in march. But I'll be writing a seperate blog on that. A CT and NY trip are in the works.

April will be asuper busy month for Me as well. I will be Guest Mistress at the world's oldest BDSM training chateau, and where I first trained as a Pro Domme, La Domaine Esemar! from april 1-6

Then at the end of the month of april I'll be making a trip to Maine, to shoot and to teach a class and maaaaybe even to feature dance.

I am not going to spoil you with tons of free pictures this time. Because this time around, I am the one who needs some love and spoiling.....................................................

My wishlist is a nice place to start:

I also havent been shooting while I've been going thru all this bullshit. I even had to cancel My awesome big shoot with BrutalMaster because I was so sick. BUT the good news is I have LOTS of shoots planned for feb and march! So be excited for seeing Me nude in new and exciting ways and stripping out of outfits you've never seen! Yay.

Also awesome news:

A very famous fetish model who I have been admiring from afar for YEARS and always dreamed of working with, is finally coming to the east coast!


She will be here in March, how convenient, just in time for My birthday! (march 5th, so start figuring out what you want to get Me)

We are trying to book some custom work together and are now accepting orders. Do you have some weird fetish idea you want to see us shoot together? SEND ME AN EMAIL!


let us know your idea, how long of a video you are looking for...

I would personally love to do some bondage with her, sploshing, nylon fetish ass can see where My mind is going BUT we are totally open to custom ideas and scripts you may have.

Really looking forward to see what we come up with....

So ok: I will indulge you with ONE photo. Some stills from My latest fetish video on clips4sale.

It's a tongue fetish video, shot in HD and is super sexy. You can find the full video here:

I shot this video in a well lit, plain white room using an HD camera. LOVELY beautiful closeups of My perfectly pouty mouth. Dark lipstick covers My soft lips as I explain to you how I would bite you SO HARD if given the chance, and how much I want to sink My teeth into you and slurp you up with My long tongue. I show off My tongue, with a scar from a tongue piercing an all! In closeups and various positions. Looking gorgeous as ever in black lace. You're welcome.

as always visit My whole clips store, updated frequently with brand new fetish videos, burlesque performances, interviews with pornstars, behind the scenes at the dungeon and much much more:

You can follow Me on tumblr to see when I have new videos coming out and teasers and gifs and images too!

DO IT! Buy some videos! Support Me so I can keep making weird art porn and tying girls up for everyone's amusement and living this beautiful life that I lead.

I'm gonna go trim My bush and shave My legs and pretty Myself up so I can get ready to go into work tonight. Come have some dranks and get weird western MA.

I am well rested well fed and smell like cocoa butter, anything could happen.

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it's the holidays do something worth a shit!

Yes, it's that time of year again. It's sort of hard to feel it, since it's so warm here in the northeast and there's no snow. I really hate driving in the snow tho so...I'll take it!

Having no snow makes it easier for Me to get back and forth from the club...oooover the mountain and through the woods to the stripclub I go!

I didn't have a very great day when I went back, but I am hoping everyone is more in the holiday giving spirit this next time!

I'll be dancing at the world famous Club Centerstage in downtown springfield MA

FRIDAY! Dec 18th and SUNDAY Dec 20th! I'll be dancing day shift noon til 7....sometimes I stay later if your want to keep throwing money at Me while I twerk or if you want the last champagne room of the day or if you wanna tip Me to talk about feminism or something cool.

I will also be there DAY shift noon til 7 pm on CHRISTMAS EVE!

Come lemme sit on your lap and you can pretend your santa and stuff. Christmas eve at the stripclub is one of My traditions in new's like...the happiest place to be!

I'll also have some copies of My books and DVDs with Me so I would be happy to sign them and give you some great holiday deals on them. Buy yourself something nice buy some cool ethically made porno for a sex workers for the holidays!


Tomorrow, DEC 17th is the International Day to End Violence Against Sex Workers.

Want some more info on that? Please visit:

I am running a super special deal and giving 50% of profits from camming all day tomorrow to and organization BY and FOR sex workers.

I am running cool deals and specials on Q&A and get to know you skype sessions from now until the end of the year, but TOMORROW is the only day that I am donating half of it all to charity. Camming for charity, spoil yourself and do something you can feel good about.

Please read all the info about that here:

If you are interested in setting something up please send a polite letter of introduction to:

You can also send Me an email if you send Me something off of My wishlist! I'll send you something nice in return. I don't usually do that, I usually take the stance that a gift is a gift and you shouldnt expect anything in return BUT it's the holidays and I am in the giving spirit. I have ALL types of cool stuff from photosets, video downloads, posters, DVDs, PANTIES and other cool stuff. SO, gift me and I gift you back baby!

You can see a full list of ways to give to Me this holiday season here:

Some other cool things going on for the end of the year areeee:::

I am in a calender that's coming out for 2016!

My hook family from NYC Anchors Aweigh Suspension Crew is putting out a calender of beautifully done photos of flesh hook suspensions they have facilitated in their space.

I am lucky to be featured as Jan!

We're even running a special of a signed framed print, and a calender. It's a very special project, and is on pre order right now!

More details here:

And lastly: Happy Holidays! Here's some beautiful naked photos!

Bella Vendetta shot by Courtney Trouble!


We’d been waiting a really long time to finally be in the same room at the same time together so OBVIOUSLY we shot porn!

specifically, they shot these really gorgeous photos of Me in My friends loft in Queens.

I really, REALLY love these photos.  They look like ME.  Unlike most porn shoots where you’re told to take off your glasses wear certain things act a certain way make certain faces…..I got to just ya know

be Bella Vendetta and get naked around the apartment like I would do on any given day.

To see more and buy a membership check out these links:


Please buy a membership and support independently made queer porn this holiday season!

That's all now I'll quit preaching

Please follow Me on social media to see My daily antics, pictures and thoughts:

I also have anew snapchat account get in touch to gain access!


Thanksgiving weekend post, holiday seasons and all sorts of stuff!

Yes it's true, life is a whirlwind, yet again. Are you really surprised? But, I've been taking it in stride. And instead of freaking out and getting overwhelmed, I just took a little break from reality, and turned off My phone and My computer and laid on the couch with heated blankets and chihuahuas and binge watched Nashville for longer than I care to admit.

Definitely feeling better now and more excited than ever to get back at it and hustle hustle hustle.

Some cool stuff has been happening.

Let's see, first of all: Photographer Ellen Stagg (one of My faves to work with) just released this super beautiful set of photos on her website featuring ME! (Bella Vendetta of posing with NYC burlesque royalty Evelyn Vinyl and Miss Poison ivory. Some classy broads and I was so stoked to be able to take My clothes off and get naked with them. Gorgeous on all levels.

Here's a few of My favorites:

You can find the rest at which you should most definitely buy a membership to:

you can also go to and scroll thru and find the link to Stagg Street and buy your membership THERE so I can get the referral. That would be rad too!

I know how much you guys value being an informed porn consumer.

You can also learn more about the other lovely ladies in the photos, and see where they might be performing burlesque near you at: and

ALSO: Big awesome fat juicy exciting news::::

A really cool movie I am in directed by Julie Simone is nominated for an AVN award!

I am so honored and stoked, it came as a huge surprise.

The scene is a girl/girl artfully done suspension rope bondage performance that I did with Julie and Lydia Vengeance at a Madison Young party in NYC a few years back.

I actually have the scene available in My clips4sale store here:

This is what Julie Simone Herself has to say about it:

88 mins of rope bondage suspensions tied by Master Rigger & AVN Hall of Famer Julie Simone. Solo struggling after on screen tying. Watch the bondage as it happens and try to learn Julie’s technique or just marvel at the beauty of the rope. Ashley Renee & Nikki Sebastian are suspended in #latex, Skin Diamond & Mary Jane are #barefoot in flowing robes. Madison Young wears white cotton panties & socks.#BBW model JJ Plush wears a #girdle and#pantyhose. Bella Vendetta & Lydia Vengeance are tied live at an event in front of an awestruck audience. Julie herself is tied by Lorelei. 8 scenes of girl on girl bondage directed by Julie Simone. Individual Scenes available at or

This was a special night for Me, I don't generally do anything submissive, let alone in front of a crowd of strangers. It was a big deal for Me to submit to Mistress Julie....but who on earth would pass up being tied to such a beautiful creature as Lydia anyhow? My head is down for a lot of this, My hair shaved into a mohawk, and My submisiveness is oozing out of Me. A rare moment for Bella Vendetta, I am thrilled to have AVN recognize it!

It also makes Me nostalgic and makes Me miss making erotic art with Julie and even sort of miss being tied up....

I digress....

Proud of Julie and proud to have been a part of this project and REALLY hope it wins an AVN award!

Some cool stuff has been happening in My clips4sale store, I really think you should check it out. Sock fetish galore!


I am offering a few sales!

From now through MONDAY Dec 1st I will be offering the following sales:

My Q&A Phone hotline is reduced to just .99 a minute! I LOVE this hotline, people call up to say hi, to ask advice, to ask about the adult industry, to inquire about doing sessions with me and a whole lot more. I never know where the conversation will go and am always pleasantly surprised.

This is NOT a jerk off, or humiliation or sex hotline. This is for CONVERSATION and Q&A

you can find the link to call here:

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I am also offering $50 skype shows! These are half an hour long, Q&A, smoke sessions, get to know you, discuss current events, and ask Me about anything under the sun. Also My favorite thing to do with My fans and is a great way for us to get to know each other.

I'm feeling generous, so come spend some time with me online for just $50

For My foot fetish fans out there: I am offering a super special deal!

Half hour long foot fetish shows for just $75

For $100 We can do a 20 minute skype show AND I will send you EIGHT of My foot fetish videos!

For $150 I am offering: a 20 minute skype foot fetish show, PLUS I will mail you a signed copy of My DVD “Foot Fetish Sluts #3” AND two pairs of worn, scented just like Me socks! Really, that's a huge deal you can't beat that I won't be offering again anytime soon. I LOVE sending care packages off to My fans so take advantage of this one!

If you are interested in any of these deals over the next four days please send a polite letter of introduction to:

I will also be DANCING a lot this holiday season.

So far I have a few dates picked out and may be adding more

you can always follow Me on twitter for up to date info on the when and where's

I will be appearing at the world famous Club Centerstage in December!

Dec 11th day shift from noon til 7 pm

Dec 13th day shift from noon til 7 orrrr until you give Me a reason to go home! I usually like to stay late on sundays.

Dec 20th AND Dec 21st day shift from noon til 7 pm

and Dec 24th...Christmas Eve! DAY SHIFT! Come get away from yur annoying family and drink some shots with me and get a lap dance. Tis the season!

Special outfits drink specials special treats special special special all night long!

Please visit for more info and directions!

And wish My little artporn bondage flick luck at the AVNs! Thanks for all the support guys I appreciate it more than you know!

photo by Jeremy Saffer

I missed fall in new england

Ok, this must be some kind of record for Me. I haven't written a blog in FOREVER! I've wanted to, but the Universe has been telling Me it wasn't time so I held off for a while. Partly because I literally didn't have time to, and partly because a lot of really intense shit was going on for My family in My personal life and it took Me a while to process.

Sao, let's go back to September shall we? In september, I got the chance to FINALLY meet, chill, and work with internet sensation and fetish model Jeselyn Online of

We went together to the Boston Freedom Rally at the Boston Commons. We worked a booth for selling some awesome glass pieces and dab rigs and playing games like a fucking bunch of carnies. Step right up step right up, pornstars want to play a ridiculous weed themed game show for you all!

In case you don't know what the freedom rally is all about, it's put on by MASSCANN and aims to educate folks about medical marijuana and the legalization of cannabis. Basically, lots of awesome folks celebrate their love for ganja for two fulls days in downtown Boston.  I also got the chance to chill and work with Boston based fetish model Kitty Glitter for the day!

That was a hoot!

We took a few pics together:

AND I shot this video of a little interview with Jeselyn during the fest, check it out on My youtube page here:

We worked reallllly long days, in the verrrrry hot sun, we both got sunburned. And like, it was like a convention of yester year for Me...and by that I mean that I didn't really get to chill or hang out too much cuz I was just working and working and hoping I got a chance to wolf down some food at the end.

The plus side is that everyone at the booth was fun and in good spirits.

The next day, Jeselyn and I got up bright and early so we could shoot. Yes, clown makeup was on by 8 am and we shot this really crazy fun cream pie fight video together. I was in clown makeup, she was not, and she threw cream pie after cream pie right into My face! Then I got My cream pie revenge and cream pied her tits. Yes, My life is probably more fun than yours!

Here are some stills from THAT:

The full clips will be available on My clips4sale store right HERE:

Much fun was had by all!

There's some other fun new stuff going on in there too so check it out.

Like, a really fun Halloween sock fetish video I posted. Yes, halloween toe socks, it's a real thing:

You can also follow Me on tumblr, which is where I post trailers, stills and promo for My new videos as they come out.. AND It's the only social media I have that is NSFW so be careful scrolling at work or school, there's definitely nudity.

So: shortly after My Boston trip I took off to California. I had some family business to attend to and it was all really incredibly stressful and intense. I wanted to chill hard and go to the beach and see all My friends and maybe shoot and do some sessions. BUT you know. It didn't turn out that way at all. I spent most of My time at the hospital with My grandmother, and barely had two hours to Myself. I DID manage to see a few friends. My dearly beloved: Misti Dawn AND My friend Charlie Sheena. I sort of really treasure getting to hang out with porn people who don't do porn anymore but still have some connection with Me, and it's nice to know not all friendships were so baseless that as soon as the adult industry was out of the picture, we all lost touch. SO, THAT was really cool. We ate a lot of sushi and smoked a lot of good Cali weed and watched a lot of American Horror Story. It was really needed and helpful in a super stressful time. We also didn't take ONE picture together. Fail, sorry.

I also got to re connect with an old high school punk rock friend of Mine, who now lives in LA and manages The Used.....SO Misti and I got to go and check out The Used UNPLUGGED! Dude, it was so awesome.We got to go back stage and say whats up. I felt sort of like an asshole, because I was just so excited to see Misti and we hadn't seen each other in SO long so we just talked and talked and were totally into each other and sorta ignored everything and everyone around us. But...The Used...SO GOOD! My 15 year old self was freaking the fuck out. So many memories with those albums...

We DID take a picture too:

So, Los Angeles trip felt like forever but wasn't even long enough and I WILL be going back, and hopefully things are a bit more calmed down and I can actually do some work as well on the next trip. I have to say tho, I like this theme in My life of traveling and NOT working, it's a new concept for Me. I generally book all of My trips around paying gigs. It's quite freeing to not have to pack ten thousand bags, heels, toys, camera equipment and such.

SO, I hit the ground running right when I came back. Had a shitty early am flight, no sleep. Got home barely got sleep had to go to NJ and back right away that ate up two days. Had car troubles that ate up a day.....ALL I wanted was to A) go to the club and make some $ and try to recover financially from taking so much unpaid time off. And B) to get some mega computer work done and cam.

Well, car troubles fucked up the club plan...I had no way of getting there! I kept making plans...ok TOMORROW I'll dance, then something else would happen with the car, I borrow a car and THAT one has had issues too...It's fucking never ending automotive drama here!

Then we had this big insane crazy storm. I really LOVE living in the mountains, but the downside is that you are truly on mother natures schedule. Crazy mountain storms, flash floods, power goes out. Aint nobody getting computer work done. Cell towers have been down lately, internet is in and out....It's really frustrating. I actually WANT to work and sit in front of My computer for days, and I can't even do it! It appears the internet is working everywhere EXCEPT My office right now, so as I write this, I'm sitting on My couch...the exact opposite of what I was trying to accomplish by setting up an entire office in the first place.

ANYHOW: Getting it done aren't I!

Some cool stuff happened right when I got back. I was greeted with many, many packages sent from fans, devotees and friends trying t cheer Me up cuz was going through such a hard time. Coming home to so many gifts was awesome! New books new music new clothes!

If YOU would like to contribute to My happiness you can find My wishlist here:

I actually have a whole bunch you can find, one for food, one for shoes, one for books.....etc etc. I REALLY enjoy being spoiled, and love it when people who read My blog and drool all over the free pics reward Me by sending Me gifts.

ALSO: Right when I got home I got a package filled with My copies of “Coming Out Like A Pornstar” a book edited by none other than Jiz Lee and features writing by lots of different folks within the sex and porn industry about privacy, coming out to your parents, and navigating personal relationships. A lovely selection of memoirs that features some of My most favorite pornstars. Aaaaaand I have a chapter in it too! It's quite exciting. It's release was really well timed because I'd just gotten back from the west coast visitng My grandmother...and I wouldn't even be talking to her anymore if it wasn't for the process of WRITING the book. You'll understand more if you read My story in the book. You can learn more and order a copy here: OR you can order directly from Me and get a signed copy along with some other goodies!

If you are interested in directly supporting this sex worker then drop me an email here:

I know it's been forever since I've updated My blog, BUT I haven't been neglecting My other forms of social media. So check out My facebook:

and Twitter I update like a fiend:

ALSO: I recently got a new phone so I'm back on My instagram game!

And with that new phone came a kik and a snapchat so maybe if yu're good and send Me some gribute or gifts off My wishlist I might give you access to those things..

You can always call to chat with Me too, I have been using My niteflirt hotlines an awful lot: My Q&A hotline is a great one to call if you just have questions or want to chat or maybe want to talk to Me before thinking about booking a professional BDSM sessions with Me at

NOW: Whee can you see Me in REAL LIFE!??

Well, Now that this car situation is getting sorted out, I will be dancing This THURSDAY Nov 5th and SUNDAY the 8th for DAY SHIFT that's 12 noon til 7 pm...and I generally stay a bit 9 or 10 pm. Come give Me a REASON to stay later!

I'll be appearing at the world famous Club Centerstage for more details and directions.

Can't wait to put some heels on and try some pole tricks, hopefully I'm not too rusty!

There's a chance I may be at Exxxotica NJ too but I'm not going to post those dates yet til it's all set in stone.

Thanks for being patient with Me everyone I adore yall!


Planet 313 photography

I don't have a clever name for this blog

That's a first huh? I've been blogging for well over a decade and I don't think I've ever copped out quite so hard. Ah well. Well, lots has gone on. As usual, I waited too long to blog and then tried to make a list of all the highlights I wanted to mention and I just KNOW I am going to forget some.

SO: When I last left you dear readers I was dancing a lot, or rather dancing regularly at the club. Still am. That's been great actually. It's nice to get out of town once a week and see some friends and have some dranks and do some dirty dancing and stuff. I have been doing sundays tho, and since it's football season, I'm not sure I'm going to keep doing sunday days. I'll be concentrating on some other stuff in the next few weeks BUT you'll still get your chances to come party with Me I promise!

So, here's what My schedule looks like and where you can find Me!

I'll still be on this sunday for My regular shift, it's going to be your last chance to see Me ona sunday so please come and show some love!

Sept 20th noon til 7 pm at the world famous Club Centerstage for more info and directions. Bring roses, bring size 7 shoes, bring money!

Sept 21st I will be available for custom SKYPE cam shows, and for shows with a slave in the dungeon starting at 230 pm EST

Please see here for more info on a custom cam show:

At 3 pm on Sept 22nd I will be doing a LIVE NAKED COOKING SHOW! It's a fun thing I have done in the past and I am bringin it back in a big way. Tuesday will be the first one with many many more to follow. Show will go for about an hour. I will be doing this LIVE in HD on chaturbate!

Find Me here:

Thursday sept 24th I will also be on cam, in the afternoon right at noon and again in the evening at 9 pm. You can find Me on the streamate network!

Saturday and Sunday sept 26-27 I am super pleased to announce that I will be appearing at the Boston Freedom Rally! I will be selling some pipes and other goodies with the team. What's even MORE exciting! I'll be there with fetish models Jeselyn Online of and Kitty Glitter

We'll be slingin some gorgeous glass pipes and whatnots over at the booth. Come say hi! Get a photo with some gorgeous babes support the legalization of marijuana! for more info

I've also been waiting FOREVER to shoot with Jeselyn so we are excited to finally get together! We have a hotel, antics WILL ensue I am sure! We might even jump on cam together, she might let Me tie her up I mean...who knows what will happen! If you are interested in booking a custom skype show OR a purchasing a custom video or clip featuring us please get in touch NOW! for serious inquiries only.

On sept 29th I will be at Divas “Haven” nightclub in Northampton MA to celebrate the birthday of burlesque starlet, Morgan Fey. My love for her is well documented and I have a nice surprise planned for her. I'm excited to dress up all goth again too in something tight ripped and vinyl or something.

Then september is over and Ocotber is upon us! How did that happen so fast!!!?? I have some cool stuff planned for October too but I'm gonna save that for a while.

NOW: Lemme tell you about some of the cool stuff thats already happened that you missed.

I did this really fun shoot with a local photographer. It was MY idea of course to get naked and crawl into this river....without My glasses on. I wanted to get close to the gnarled knotted roots of this tree, but because I didn't have My glasses on I put My head directly into a fucking spider nest. Pretty much worst case scenario, BUT I DID get the shot. Haha anything for art! It felt good to be in front of the camera again.

I also got these gorgeous photos back from Leather Coven. I shot these fashion photos back when Chelsea Poe was visiting and we had shot for their etsy store.

I was wearing this gorgeous black leather pentagram harness. LOVE IT.

Here's some of the pics by Mateo Guadalupe and Bettie Rivers for Leather Coven
It's also exciting because these were the very first pics taken of Me in My dungeon!

You can find their lovely leather wares here: And follow on tumblr for more updates:

You can also find a BUNCHA photos from this on My facebook page:

I will have some shots from the scary spiders in the river shoot for My next blog.

Til then, be satiated with seeing Me virtually LIVE on cam or come see Me in person at the club or at the freedom rally!

I'm also going to be doing some shoots with fetish model Isabel Vinson this month that I am SUPER excited for so stay tuned for all sorts of new shit.

Right now, the newest shit you can possibly see is My clips4sale store

I update it every single goddamn day with fresh fetish content, interviews with pornstars, behind the scenes from photoshoots, foot fetish content and much much much more! Check it out!

Til next time freaks and weirdos! Over and Out!

work in progress

Nirvana on Cassette

Is there anything better? Not really...MAYBE Slayer on cassette but thats about it. Well, as you read in My earlier blogs, My car died. My car had a sun roof and a cassette deck and I would blast around and blare Nirvana on cassette and let My hair whip out the sunroof.

I got a new truck, which I sort of love cuz it's big and burly and will be awesome in the winter and it makes Me wanna go mudding and run stuff over.

But alas...theres no tape player

not even a cd player actually

a fucking radio

the radio sucks.

I don't generally listen to it so I never knew that people actually LIKED those crazy songs they play over and over again at the stripclub, but apparently...thats what people like

go figure

techno remixes of all My favorite songs

It sucks

Loking forward to getting a tape player, can I even get one anymore?

So but anyways, got a car am mobile again and just in time cuz OI was really going stir crazy and had so much shit to take care of and people at the club who wanted to see Me and photoshoots to get to and concerts and all sorts of stuff.

I haven't been dancing nearly as much and it's suiting Me just fine actually.

I hadn't really danced in SO long, only a few times a year or when I had an event or was featuring...until Wendy came along. She sort of renewed My love for it. We had a lot of fun too. We hustled together and twerked together and hated life together and loved life together.

Since she's been gone I tried to keep the momentum up but it just hasn't been the same.

Like, The weekend will come on and Ill look around for Wendy and she's not there, the fucking hour and a half drive home sucks too. Especially at night when Im exhausted and theres no one to make Me laugh.

I still love it, but I think I need to stagger it a bit more so I can keep loving it. After all the stress with the car and trying to get money together I was reminded of how difficult it is to be a dancer and thats your only job. So unpredictable. So stressful. Its a huge toll on your body

SO: I'll be doing ONE DAY a week for right now.

SUNDAY DAY SHIFTS at the world famous Club Centerstage in downtown springfield MA

Theres an ever changing host of bartenders but the good news is theyre all hott and all fun.

The DJ on sundays is really cool. Like, quickly becoming My fave. I got to dance to portishead and Nirvana and NWA all in the same day this week so come show some fucking love to the guy!

I do much prefer the day shift, less insanity...less drama...less drugs.

The crew of chicks that works day shift are all pretty cool, a super wide variety of body types which makes Me feel happy. Curvy bitches, older women, barely legal teeny tinies, black ladies brown ladies, short hair tattoos dreadlocks. Like seriously.

I really hate when clubs get on these kicks about only allowing a certain body type or a certain look or a certain skin color at their clubs. So Centerstage wins in that aspect for Me.

I tried working ona turn up twerk tuesday.

I did really bad and felt bad about Myself and didn't have fun and got ice thrown at Me and it was NOT MY night.

BUT GODDAMN, they blow it out the fucking box! I would LOVE to witness that shit as a customer. All the big booty girls, people makin it rain and a BOSS DJ. I applaud them for actually doing events and keeping it fresh over there. It's nice to be on the team right now.

So: I want to stop being all over the place with dancing and I think if I just stick to sunday days and get My regulars back and people know where to find Me and since I feel so comfortable there, Ill do well.

So please, come support Me!

I always have some DVDs and some signed photos and posters and books and stuff in My locker that I would love for you to go home with

And My new favorite things is wearing stockings/panties/socks on stage and them taking them off and selling them to customers...ya know, so they have something to remember Me by.


Come see Me SUNDAY August 8th, August 15th and August 22nd at the world famous Club Centerstage

265 Dwight Street downtown springfield MA for more directions

I also really fucking need some new dance stuff: like outfits and specifically shoes...I beat those bitches UP at the club!

If you'd like t o send something off My dance wishlist you can do that here:

Other than that life hasn't been too exciting lots of work

a lot of writing which feels really greta

I have a new piece up on Thought Catalog all about how much I love Wendy Michelle called “How I learned to love a juggalo”

you can find that here:

If you like My writing and wanna read something a little bit more serious, maybe you should pre order the new book I have a chapter out in called “Coming Out Like a Pornstar” compiled and edited by Jiz Lee it has stories from some of My favorite porn folks all about what it's like to navigate relationships and come out to your family, friends, and lovers and sometimes even the mailman, as a pornstar

super interesting stuff

and I love it when books show sex workers to be multi dimensional, everyone has a different take on it and a different story

you can preorder that here:

If reading isn't your thing and you'd rather jerk off...well

I can help you with that too......

You should check My clips4sale store. I have beeen releasing some really special stuff that I know you truly cannot find anywhere else

Please checkit

In the past week I've got Wendy Michelle eating mac and cheese ina onsie, some foot fetish vids, an artporn I made with Courtney Trouble and a puppy training clip with a male slave which is super humiliating and I think you will all dig.

As always follow Me on social media to see where I'm dancing, when I am camming and when I release new videos!

Oh wait, speaking of camming. I've been doing a lot of that lately! That's been really fun

You can find Me on cam here:


You can also CALL ME here:

ALL this week I am available for custom skype shows and cam shows so if you'd like to see Me LIVE on your computer screen drop Me an email and lets make it happen!

~BellaVendetta666 at gmail

Thats all for today, no pictures I'm waiitng to get some back and would rather go have lots of sex right now than try and resize and edit stuff to put here

I know you can all relate

So for once, go and BUY some videos or clips and support Me, instead of getting free stuff this week, spoil ME in some ways, I've been spoiling you guys ALOT with the photos lately!

Planet 313 photography

Aint no way your gonna stop My shine

ok I've been listening to a lot of DMX in the mornings so forgive the reference but damn, so much of the Flesh of My flesh album is speaking to Me right now.

So: I didn't do that bad thing where I wait like ten weeks to blog and then forget all the cool shit that happened.

I am doing it as soon as I physically had a chance to sit down this time, and I even made a list!

SO, here's what happened.

Wendy Michelle came to visit

I threw her a party “We love wendy michelle” at Anthony's

It was sorta a clusterfuck getting there cuz, read My last blog about the whole not having a car thing.

As like, convincing other strippers to drive us and schlepping shit into one vehicle and then to the club then another vehicle to stay at someones house because we wanted to dance for the weekend but had no car

so, yah

We made it, late to our own party, full rockstar status.

Had My peoples with Me, Sacha Thumper and her crew running the merch table. Photographer Brandon Stack was in the house to document the whole thing.

Burlesque Starlet Morgan Fey was also in the house so of course Brandon took some lovely pics of her.

I wasn't really in front of the camera too much this party. I was running around, since I was late like ten million thins were happening and people who needed stuff and customers who needed attention and stuff. BUT I managed to get it set up so Brandon could take some photos of some super lovely ladies.

Here is a beautiful young lady named Loni. Be excited because I want to shoot so many more pictures of this beauty, she is so pretty and I want a lapdance from her.

And then I had him take photos of McKinley, a dancer there. She has an awesome ass and I've been wanting to take pictures of her since I saw her. So Brandon hooked it up! He took some lovely photos of her.

Then I walked away for a little while and came back and Wendy Michelle was crawling all over her (seriously, shes a girl after My own heart) I was like HAAAYYYY ladies!

And then I climbed on top and conquered twerk mountain. Three girl twerk tower, this club gets pretty crazy sometimes.

We know how to fucking have fun

I'll be releasing the rest of the photos on My fb page in the next few days:

While Wendy was visiting I also got the chance to shoot a really cute camel toe twerking video of her. ANDZ there's stills, so be excited, I'll be releasing it very soon on My clips4sale store

check out the good stuff I've been releasing, it's exciting, seriously good alternative artporn and fetishporn

Here's a few of the stills, yes it's all about hello kitty. I love photographing wendy

wendy wendy wendy.

Wendy also shot some photos wearing an outfit I made, shot by her friend Xander

You can check for a bunch more photos of clothing I've made.

I have My sewing room all set up right now so I'm pretty stoked to be making more stuff.

So then I had to figure out a ride back home and schlep My stuff into another car and onto a sidewalk to wait for another ride and then into another car and then up three flights of stairs to the studio. OI. That part wasn't fun, but the naked chicks and wendy and chilling and photos was all the fun parts, wish there was more of that!

So then I was home and had a few hours to get shit ready for the arrival of pornstar Chelsea Poe and videographer Jacqueline Mary from NYC. I had planned this shoot for so long it was nice for it to finally happen.

We filmed “The training of poe” an intense four day long slave training of chelsea poe.

Lesbian BDSM fetish porn of My dreams. I don't think anything else like it exists anywhere and I cannot wait to release it into the world.

Xbiz even got amped about it, you can read about it here:

Chelsea did really well with her slave training and found her place in the house right away. It was also the first time I shot in My dungeon space so that was super exciting.

Did some protocol and etiquette training, some pain and sensation play with floggers, crawling, begging lessons, serving, drinking and eating out of waterbowls, zipperlines with clothespins, humiliation, smoking, lunge whipping in the river, holding her face under the water.

YEAH, these are a few of My favorite things.

The footage is intense and beautiful, the stills are gorgeous. I'm not going to offiically release any until it gets alittle bit closer BUT here's a few screen grabs to get you excited.

Everything about it felt great. The pace we went, the energy in the dungeon. Hearing other people say good things about being on My sets makes Me feel good too.

ALSO: Leather Coven, a leather maker/designer from western MA came to visit and all three of us gals got to shoot for the catalog in some gorgeous leather pieces.

Ill leak those on the next blog!

Now some more news.

“Coming Out Like a Pornstar” w book edited and compiled y Jiz Lee, featuring a whole chapter written by ME is now available for presale.

This project was very personal for Me and I am stoked to release this into the world as well.

You can learn more and preorder the book here:


I'm gonna go jump in the shower and trim My bush and get Myself ready for a few more days at the club:

I will be dancing at the world famous Club Centerstage SUNDAY july 19th from 3 pm til 10 pm

and MONDAY July 20th from noon til 8 pm

Come say hello, check out the new champagne rooms, let Me tell you all the filthy things I did to Chelsea Poe while you tip Me....

let's have some dranks! for more info and directions

265 Dwight Street Springfield, MA